So, why AM I a Vtuber, anyway? It was already revealed that I was a face cam streamer once upon a time. Well, remember, I started out streaming to pretty much no one. People from that era definitely don't know current me and I don't think anyone these days is desperate for a face "reveal". I revealed it to a small number of people in a private call I believe in 2021? Considering I don't use social media to post filtered to death photos of myself, no one knows who I am IRL save for my mods. I'm in the category of Vtubers that likes to keep their private life or at least their face secret. I don't like the constant trend of Vtuber vs IRL posts that pop up on Twitter what feels like almost every month? Eveyone is free to express themselves how they wish, but I think the mystery is cooler. Also with the rise of AI, I don't ever want to risk a creepazoid using my likeness for sick things.
On a mirrored topic of masking, I feel that socially online, I keep this cordial air to myself, specifically when I'm ordering a commission (man, it feels nice to type this without South Asia bots scrambling to scam me) on Vgen. Sure, sometimes I make a complaint post here and there, but I feel like the things I type are harmless and usually warrant SOME sort of reply. When it feels like forever to just get a conversation out of someone new, I just mask back up. I think I've reached the point where I no longer want friends in this space; it's nice to chat when I'm live, but even this year, people will happily lie to my face about wanting to hang out or letting me be part of something with them. Maybe they lie to try not to hurt my feelings? It's very hard to tell, so I just prefer when people simply say what they truly mean so I can move on. It's an unfortunate remnant of my teen years. The friend decay, I mean. People keep me around when they think I'm useful for something and never to bother to reach out for something casual. I leave breadcrumbs all around to let them know it's okay to chat with me. I send a message and get left on read so much. I'm looking forward to ripping the bandage off live on the Aly channel in April. Anyway, that's the brain juice spent today.
Until we connect again, Kind Reader.